Roots and Wings

The two most important things we can give our children. I have spent the last 7 months helping their root systems...holding them close and letting them know who and what they will always need - that their family is their root - we will be strong and hold them when they need it.......soon I will give them wings.

My beautiful journey as a stay at home mom is soon to end. I have been interviewing at a company and I believe it is going well and I will have an offer soon. I have researched and searched and found a daycare that I believe will offer them the best possible environment to learn and grow, to spread their wings.

I am so proud to have been able to spend this time with them, I am so grateful for every month we struggled to pay the mortgage so that I could hold and snuggle them a little longer, I am so grateful for a supportive husband who listened to me complain about money and rave about being home. I belive that these have been some of the most important times of all of our lives.

So, now that you have roots my beautiful children, jump and discover your wings....

Forever

I know it has been forever since I have posted....I guess I feel like I didn't have too much to say. Our lives are happy - we are trying to learn how to make it on less money - and not doing a very good job most of the time. i am looking for something to bring in a little extra money and help make ends meet, but in the meantime we are going to pumpkin patches, playing in leaves, stomping in puddles and loving fall.....breathe in the scent of those fall leaves - they won't last forever.

The 3rd

It has been months since I have posted, not sure anyone reads the posts anyway, but I felt compelled to write. First, I read a post by Kelle, then I felt the urge to purge my feelings into this blog. My first born child, my sweet, sensitive, rough and tumble little boy is going to be 3 on Saturday, and for some reason it just hit me and I am surging with a range of emotions. Sadness - can the little baby that taught me about motherhood and uncompromising love really not be a baby anymore? Pride - this little soul is so kind and caring, always praising a good job, whether it is his sister saying a word for the first time or a man on our neighborhood walk painting a boat. Unexpressable Love - 'nough said, and a little bit of fear - how do I know that what I am doing to mold and shape him is right? How do I sleep assured that he will continue to care about others, to be a responsible steward of this earth ("that box is recycle mom" as I go to throw something away) and know that we love him more than we ever thought possible?

I guess we never know, so this is where faith comes in. His father and I are doing the best job we can to help this little soul reach his full potential, we are trying to love and discipline in proper balance, help and let go in the right proportion. In the end parenting is a guessing game and a calculated risk, let's hope we make the calcuations correctly. I love you little man. You and your sister are my heart.

Birthdays and Such

Last Thursday was my birthday, since we have had children I don't really consider my birthday that big of a deal, I will use it to get extra hugs and cuddles, but usually I am not influenced too much with what happens on that day. Last Thursday was rough - both kids were sick (just colds but it still results in some extra care and whining) then out of the blue the weather gets rainy and cold, then Mimi had to go to the doctor for her monthly weight check - and on and on and on. So I pretended that my birthday was Saturday instead, that worked much better, my best friend spent some time snuggling our babies and Sam and I headed to Joey's at the mall for some pupus and drinks...we had a lovely time and even talked about something other than our babies.

Camping with the kids (or Live and Learn)

So we took the kids camping this weekend, please remember they are 2 1/2 and 14 months. I thought we did really good, they weathered the hour and a half drive with minimal whining and only one stop for diaper changes (really mommy had to pee). The first day was devine, I swear the temp must have been at lease 100 so we spent the next 7 hours at the lake, the kids had a blast and we managed to stay cool....and the rest of the night would have been just as great had we not tried to sleep with 2 toddlers in one tent on one queen sized air mattress.....all they wanted to do was wake each other up, so the next morning with about 3 hours of sleep we packed up and attempted the lake again, by about noon the kids had had it - so home we went, not bad for our first attempt...we had a great time and we know alot more for next time.......

Adirondack Stone Works - Kekoa

One would think that after 2 years an almost 33 year old would be able to bury her dog, her friend, her first baby....how sad is it that I wasn't. My husband has been all over me to bury poor Kekoa, somehow I knew I wasn't ready...then I saw the beautiful stone memorials at Adirondack Stone Works online here and thought that might help. In two days I had received the most beautifully engraved stone that simply said "Kekoa". I could not find words to describe what he had been to me in life so I thought that a simple marker would be best.

I was surprised that the stone was so heavy - I guess I thought it was going to be thinner or something, it is substantial, please see the photo....the process was still difficult, but now I know that he will be remembered, simply and beautifully, Thank You so much to everyone at Adirondack for helping me set my beloved Kekoa free.

Let the good times roll

I am officially at home for my second week as a stay at home mom, it has been wonderful, I am happier, the kids are happier, my husband is happier, life is good. If I can only find a way to make a little extra money so that we can be a little more comfortable I would be a much happier mama - but if God leads me to it, he will lead me through it....so I am looking and praying and loving my babies as only I can...